Day 2 of 100 - Redefining Yumminess

Today's question:  Are you interested or committed?  Good question.  I think THIS time around what is different is that I am committed.  I know I say that all the time... but what's the difference? - Redefining yumminess.  Whether counting calories or points, the bottom line is that I was always interested in how I could fit in a candy bar, or a decadent dessert, or eating out often, or tweaking my weigh-in days so that I could eat as much as I wanted but have a few days to almost make up for it.  I was interested in how many excuses I could come up with to explain why my weight loss was slow, or what would be a really good reason not to follow a diet at all. 

This time I finally get it.  It IS a lifestyle change in the way I eat.  It sort of does make me sad, but it makes me happy as well, because I finally understand the difference between being interested and being committed.  This is not to say that I can't have candy or dessert, or eat out, or skip an occasional weigh-in because of an over-indulgence.  But it means that I have to realize it is a different game that I have to play.  And I can have fun.  Really I can.  Not just shopping for healthy food (yes, I'm one of the few people that absolutely loves grocery shopping!) and finding new recipes, but I found today that I even enjoyed planning my meals for tomorrow. 

I am faced with a challenge tomorrow: I'm going with my brothers to visit my mother in her nursing home for lunch, which we bring.  I actually do this every week, but have never done it while committed to my weight loss plan.  At work I have soup, salad, several fruits, and a casserole or protein that I heat in the microwave.  When I go to my mother's there is no fridge or microwave, so we always just bring cold lunches (the one time we brought in Chinese food it was just too complicated).  Either my brother or I bring potato salad and coleslaw, sandwiches or bagels, desserts, chips, pretzels, etc.  And we eat and we enjoy.  So for tomorrow I told him to bring his own lunch (and for my other brother who is visiting) and I would take care of myself and my mother (sadly, at this point, she could eat cardboard and not care - I spent a lot of time at the beginning bringing her all her favorite foods but it doesn't matter anymore).  I'm packing a totally on-program lunch, including a big mug of soup that I will heat and eat in my office BEFORE going over.  I am also packing carrots and celery sticks because I will need a lot of crunch. Anyway - I mixed and matched all my options for tomorrow - from breakfast through dinner - so I would eat just what I wanted to eat, and still be satisfied.
Commitment.

So redefining yumminess?  That's another fun part of this process.  I just did my version of a 1-minute muffin, except it came out like a cake and it's wonderful.  Not Cheesecake Factory cheesecake wonderful.  Not even close.  Looking through interested eyes I wouldn't even give it a second glance.  Looking through committed eyes, I can't wait to have it again.  It's not that I am going to eat foods that I don't like - it's just that I am willing to be open to new tastes and textures and give things a second try.  I'm willing to redefine yumminess.

I hope I can stay awake tonight for the chat at Blog to Lose.  It's 10PM - WAY past my bedtime, but I'll aim to be awake.  I got so much from Mondays' chat I don't want to miss it tonight.

Have a committed day everyone!
Miriam