Okay - so I had a really good weigh-in (6 pounds!) but in all honesty, I did not expect to weigh in last week so I had my FULL lunch, ALL my beverages and ALL my snacks. I significantly pared down my intake for last night's weigh-in.
OMG there I go again - not giving myself credit.... Yes all of the above is true, but I also made 100's of food decisions throughout the week based on healthy eating choices and a weigh-in looming down the road. I don't expect losses to be as significant as this first one - I will be happy with 1/2 pound a week, if that (which has always been my MO). What helped me through the week was watching the videos at this website: "Man Meets Scale" on which he has You Tube videos (it is one presentation starting with the top one, but he broke it into two videos because of the length) about a remarkable woman named Jennie. I absolutely BEG of you to set aside 20 minutes and watch these videos. They were absolutely the aha moment for me when I decided that I was not going to bolt this time around.
Because of these YouTube videos I also spent some time watching other "vlogs" (the name for video blogs, I guess) of people who have been successful on Weight Watchers. Two that I watched, vlogged from their first meeting to the end - and three had lost 100+ pounds. Only one was recently posted though - I would love to know how others are doing and if the success was long lived.
Anyway - I am very happy with my decision to return to Weight Watchers. Watching the various videos it is apparent that I am not the only one who "bolts" on a regular basis, but really, watching the videos of Jennie (same link as above) sealed the deal. When I put down the start date on my new meeting member booklet it was 12/12/12! Isn't that rather auspicious?
My saving-grace lunch all this past week was my (6 PP+) chicken salad, which I have either as a whole serving with salad greens, or broken into two sandwiches if I am on the run. I wanted to share the recipe with you. On Sunday I made four servings in the food processor, although I have also made single servings in my little chopster (1-serving portions are in parentheses). I think I am going to stick with the "bulk" preparation because I make it once and it's good for four servings.
16 oz white meat chicken (can be white meat turkey) (4 oz)
1/2 cup cranberry/orange relish (recipe below) (2 TBS)
1/2 cup Miracle Whip Lite (you can use lite mayo if you prefer) (2 TBS)
Mix in food processor, stir in 1/4 cup chopped walnuts (1 TBS)
Cranberry/Orange relish:
1 12 oz bag of fresh cranberries
1 LARGE navel orange, skin still on
1 inch of thick piece of ginger
1/2 to 1 cup Splenda (you can make it with sugar but you will have to add points)
Mix in food processor.
This actually is one of my family's favorite side dishes, and I will be sad when cranberry season comes to a close - this year I am going to freeze one bag of cranberries to see if they hold up for this recipe, and if they do I will freeze more next year.
So far I'm not tired of this, so I see LOTS of chicken salad in my future - and I have found that when I divide it into two sandwiches (made on light bread) that one sandwich is so filling that's all I need for lunch, and then I have the second sandwich on the way home, which keeps me from gnawing my arm off before I hit the kitchen for dinner.
Miriam
Thursday, December 20, 2012
Friday, December 14, 2012
Lifelong Battle -- NOT
I was watching "Addicted" the other night and the interventionist (Kristina Wandziak) said something so poignant and it reminded me of feedback comments I received last week, that I had to post it here - it relates entirely to what we do for weight loss, even though the addictions she deals with are drugs and alcohol:
"Sobriety is not a sentence to a life of misery. It is actually a gateway to a life beyond our wildest dreams."
This speaks to me regarding my whole "conversation" about what is NORMAL. I realized through all the discourse (and this quote above) that MY normal (1) might not be anyone else's normal; (2) is worth fighting for; (3) may entail life-long counting and tracking; (4) is not a punishment; and (5) is MY normal.
I acknowledge and take with me all the lessons learned from intuitive eating (it is so hard to give that up as maybe not being MY normal, although it is a worthwhile goal) and from programs like Core, Simply Filling and South Beach. I also acknowledge that life ebbs and flows and changes and morphs, so, although I must be open to other ways, the other ways may not be right for me right now.
I have been flubbing along with non-measuring and non-tracking ways of doing this and all I've been accomplishing is to gain weight. I now weigh within 12 pounds of my absolute all time heaviest. This has got to stop. I am not willing to go there.
So - I've not given up on the "meld" idea, but instead of making intuitive eating the main priority with WW "rules" second, I am making WW my priority with IE "rules" second. I think I can work with this flip and still stay true to myself (wanting so badly to trust myself to make good food choices) yet still have the guidance I need. I saw this as a severe failing, but then I thought - where would we be if life were not full of flip-flops? Would the world still be flat? Would there still be slavery? Would we still use carbon paper and mimeograph machines? Okay so that's how I'm justifying not being embarrassed by my severe flip-flop in just a week's time. However, given that no path is absolutely straight but that we can only hope for the least horrible route, I have circled, back-tracked, stopped at green lights and boldly have gone through red lights. I've taken 5 steps forward and 10 steps back, which included multi-side steps. And here I stand, back on the WW PP+ road to weight loss. What can I say? I think I really needed to go through all of those other paths to understand that WW PP+, for me, is my road to sobriety, and that it is not a life sentence of misery...
Miriam
"Sobriety is not a sentence to a life of misery. It is actually a gateway to a life beyond our wildest dreams."
This speaks to me regarding my whole "conversation" about what is NORMAL. I realized through all the discourse (and this quote above) that MY normal (1) might not be anyone else's normal; (2) is worth fighting for; (3) may entail life-long counting and tracking; (4) is not a punishment; and (5) is MY normal.
I acknowledge and take with me all the lessons learned from intuitive eating (it is so hard to give that up as maybe not being MY normal, although it is a worthwhile goal) and from programs like Core, Simply Filling and South Beach. I also acknowledge that life ebbs and flows and changes and morphs, so, although I must be open to other ways, the other ways may not be right for me right now.
I have been flubbing along with non-measuring and non-tracking ways of doing this and all I've been accomplishing is to gain weight. I now weigh within 12 pounds of my absolute all time heaviest. This has got to stop. I am not willing to go there.
So - I've not given up on the "meld" idea, but instead of making intuitive eating the main priority with WW "rules" second, I am making WW my priority with IE "rules" second. I think I can work with this flip and still stay true to myself (wanting so badly to trust myself to make good food choices) yet still have the guidance I need. I saw this as a severe failing, but then I thought - where would we be if life were not full of flip-flops? Would the world still be flat? Would there still be slavery? Would we still use carbon paper and mimeograph machines? Okay so that's how I'm justifying not being embarrassed by my severe flip-flop in just a week's time. However, given that no path is absolutely straight but that we can only hope for the least horrible route, I have circled, back-tracked, stopped at green lights and boldly have gone through red lights. I've taken 5 steps forward and 10 steps back, which included multi-side steps. And here I stand, back on the WW PP+ road to weight loss. What can I say? I think I really needed to go through all of those other paths to understand that WW PP+, for me, is my road to sobriety, and that it is not a life sentence of misery...
Miriam
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
puzzle pieces
I was struck by something yesterday. I had an inkling it was an important puzzle piece in the quest for why I am so weight-loss resistant.
My boss said he needed to see me in his office, and right away I though - "Oh what trouble am I in?" All he wanted to do was talk to me about ordering him new chairs. But it got me to seriously thinking: I have never, in 15 years, been called into anyone's office because I am in trouble, yet, every single time my boss wants to talk to me my heart sinks to my feet and I wonder what "fireable" offense I committed. Why is that my go-to reaction?
I started to think about it and realized that practically the only interactions I ever had with my parents or teachers were to scold, insult, or complain about me or something I had done. I grew up with such a lack of self esteem and such a lack of outward affection and love. I never understood it either. Whenever one of my parents found fault with me I couldn't understand why they didn't see what was good. I remember when I battled long and hard to bring my grade in something up to an A, and all my father said was "What's the matter: Don't they give A+ anymore?" And that was the end of that report card's conversation. Is it no wonder that every time I am called to talk to someone I automatically feel that I am in trouble?
So why is this a puzzle piece? After meeting with my boss I said to myself - no wonder I don't feel worthy of losing weight and having the feeling of success that would go with it. I've never been worthy of anything. Don't they give A+ anymore? If I lose 1 pound, it's worthless because I should have lost 2. If I lose 2 pounds it's worthless because I should have lost 5. No such thing as NSVs (non-scale victories) if it can't be measured it worthless, and even if a success can be measured it's worthless because it's not enough.
I have struggled so long and so hard to lose weight, and never get anywhere with it. Is this feeling of worthlessness part of the puzzle? How do I go about shaking that off and removing it from my history? Babs - you mentioned in your comment yesterday that I am such a fighter. In part that is so because I am so sick of being beaten down. Maybe I am already in the process of shaking off this feeling of not being worthy of losing weight.
My diet demons seem to come in the evening. It's when I am tired and my defenses are down. It's also reminiscent of when I used to sneak food. It was such an accomplishment to make my way into the pantry after my parents had gone to bed to sneak cereal and crackers, or to quietly open the refrigerator and sneak leftovers of a slice or two of bologna that wouldn't be missed. Or into the piano bench where my father thought he was hiding the chocolates. I'll show THEM who's boss! lol I'm successful in sneaking if I'm not successful in anything else! I think there is still a little of that going on in the evenings now. I may be home alone. It's MY house. It's MY stuff. But I still sneak. I still show I am not worthy of eating in the daylight in front of everyone. I still show "them" who's boss.
That has been happening less and less as I work on the demons, but I couldn't quite understand why I am still being stymied in so many ways. But, after yesterday's revelation when another piece of the puzzle showed itself to me, I am closer to being a whole all on my own and less in need of food to fill me.
Miriam
p.s. Flo - LOVED the look of that recipe - I printed it out and I know what I am having for dinner tomorrow night (although I will have to go out and buy the bottle of beer because I don't have any in the house right now). It's not similar to the brining process because the chicken has to sit up to 8 hours in the brine and then it is taken out of the brine and then cooked.
My boss said he needed to see me in his office, and right away I though - "Oh what trouble am I in?" All he wanted to do was talk to me about ordering him new chairs. But it got me to seriously thinking: I have never, in 15 years, been called into anyone's office because I am in trouble, yet, every single time my boss wants to talk to me my heart sinks to my feet and I wonder what "fireable" offense I committed. Why is that my go-to reaction?
I started to think about it and realized that practically the only interactions I ever had with my parents or teachers were to scold, insult, or complain about me or something I had done. I grew up with such a lack of self esteem and such a lack of outward affection and love. I never understood it either. Whenever one of my parents found fault with me I couldn't understand why they didn't see what was good. I remember when I battled long and hard to bring my grade in something up to an A, and all my father said was "What's the matter: Don't they give A+ anymore?" And that was the end of that report card's conversation. Is it no wonder that every time I am called to talk to someone I automatically feel that I am in trouble?
So why is this a puzzle piece? After meeting with my boss I said to myself - no wonder I don't feel worthy of losing weight and having the feeling of success that would go with it. I've never been worthy of anything. Don't they give A+ anymore? If I lose 1 pound, it's worthless because I should have lost 2. If I lose 2 pounds it's worthless because I should have lost 5. No such thing as NSVs (non-scale victories) if it can't be measured it worthless, and even if a success can be measured it's worthless because it's not enough.
I have struggled so long and so hard to lose weight, and never get anywhere with it. Is this feeling of worthlessness part of the puzzle? How do I go about shaking that off and removing it from my history? Babs - you mentioned in your comment yesterday that I am such a fighter. In part that is so because I am so sick of being beaten down. Maybe I am already in the process of shaking off this feeling of not being worthy of losing weight.
My diet demons seem to come in the evening. It's when I am tired and my defenses are down. It's also reminiscent of when I used to sneak food. It was such an accomplishment to make my way into the pantry after my parents had gone to bed to sneak cereal and crackers, or to quietly open the refrigerator and sneak leftovers of a slice or two of bologna that wouldn't be missed. Or into the piano bench where my father thought he was hiding the chocolates. I'll show THEM who's boss! lol I'm successful in sneaking if I'm not successful in anything else! I think there is still a little of that going on in the evenings now. I may be home alone. It's MY house. It's MY stuff. But I still sneak. I still show I am not worthy of eating in the daylight in front of everyone. I still show "them" who's boss.
That has been happening less and less as I work on the demons, but I couldn't quite understand why I am still being stymied in so many ways. But, after yesterday's revelation when another piece of the puzzle showed itself to me, I am closer to being a whole all on my own and less in need of food to fill me.
Miriam
p.s. Flo - LOVED the look of that recipe - I printed it out and I know what I am having for dinner tomorrow night (although I will have to go out and buy the bottle of beer because I don't have any in the house right now). It's not similar to the brining process because the chicken has to sit up to 8 hours in the brine and then it is taken out of the brine and then cooked.
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
Putting things in perspective
I totally enjoyed the exchange of comments in my last blog. Thanks for comments, feedback, suggestions and encouragement.
I saw my doctor yesterday - he's a DO (Doctor of Osteopathy), and so views surgery for anything, as a very last resort. (Besides, he's the director of the local Spaulding Rehabilitation hospital so his lean is towards rehab not surgery.) Apparently I have very bad degenerative and arthritic issues in my back. I will be having an MRI next week to figure out the next course of action. Probably injections to make physical therapy tolerable. However, I am cortisone immune (cortisone has never helped me in any area of my body) so I might just opt for some medication to ease discomfort. Unless the MRI shows severe narrowing of the canals where the nerves run, I don't think surgery is an immediate option. Besides, I'm not "going there" so it doesn't matter even if it is an option.
The doctor said that I have to own and accept that arthritis is my "thing." I told him that I can put that into perspective because it just so happens, that my appointment was directly after I attended the memorial service for my cousin (we are less than two months apart) who died on Saturday due to pancreatic cancer. A friend, who had survived a horrible car accident in which her fiance was killed, did teach me the lesson that I do not have to apologize for my pain (because another person's is worse and we feel guilty for complaining). So, keeping in mind that there are people with far worse fates than mine, I still have to say... this sucks! I stopped at Bed Bath & Beyond yesterday to get a package of various-sized jar openers because I can't hold my hand around a jar tightly enough to open it; I put away (temporarily) my new Garmin Forerunner because I can't walk now without being in pain (I thought that walking through the pain would enable me to stall how soon it sets in - instead it comes on me more quickly); and I am grateful for the short break from my belly dance classes so that I can rest my hip (which has bursitis and is aggravated by the way I carry myself because of the spine issues).
OMG - don't take me wrong - this is NOT a pity party. I am listing all the ailments because I want to share that I am not giving up. I cannot help what is going on in my back and, alas, I might not even be able to make it better, but that does not mean that I have to give up on everything, eat uncontrollably and sit like a slug in the recliner all day. If anything, I am even more motivated to do what I can do to find a healthy way of living and eating. Sort of like the serenity prayer. There's plenty that I cannot change and have to accept. But there are things that I do not have to accept and can change. And I think I have the wisdom to know the difference. Eating the last of what is left in the Twinkie warehouse will NOT make my arthritis go away. Eating healthy and anti-inflammatory foods might make it feel better. Sitting will NOT -- in the long run -- make the arthritis pain any less, but keeping in motion (in the right way) might help "oil the joints" and will make me feel better.
So anyway - my pain isn't any less because someone is suffering more. My pain is my pain and I will be damned if let it stop me from living the healthiest life I can.
Miriam
I saw my doctor yesterday - he's a DO (Doctor of Osteopathy), and so views surgery for anything, as a very last resort. (Besides, he's the director of the local Spaulding Rehabilitation hospital so his lean is towards rehab not surgery.) Apparently I have very bad degenerative and arthritic issues in my back. I will be having an MRI next week to figure out the next course of action. Probably injections to make physical therapy tolerable. However, I am cortisone immune (cortisone has never helped me in any area of my body) so I might just opt for some medication to ease discomfort. Unless the MRI shows severe narrowing of the canals where the nerves run, I don't think surgery is an immediate option. Besides, I'm not "going there" so it doesn't matter even if it is an option.
The doctor said that I have to own and accept that arthritis is my "thing." I told him that I can put that into perspective because it just so happens, that my appointment was directly after I attended the memorial service for my cousin (we are less than two months apart) who died on Saturday due to pancreatic cancer. A friend, who had survived a horrible car accident in which her fiance was killed, did teach me the lesson that I do not have to apologize for my pain (because another person's is worse and we feel guilty for complaining). So, keeping in mind that there are people with far worse fates than mine, I still have to say... this sucks! I stopped at Bed Bath & Beyond yesterday to get a package of various-sized jar openers because I can't hold my hand around a jar tightly enough to open it; I put away (temporarily) my new Garmin Forerunner because I can't walk now without being in pain (I thought that walking through the pain would enable me to stall how soon it sets in - instead it comes on me more quickly); and I am grateful for the short break from my belly dance classes so that I can rest my hip (which has bursitis and is aggravated by the way I carry myself because of the spine issues).
OMG - don't take me wrong - this is NOT a pity party. I am listing all the ailments because I want to share that I am not giving up. I cannot help what is going on in my back and, alas, I might not even be able to make it better, but that does not mean that I have to give up on everything, eat uncontrollably and sit like a slug in the recliner all day. If anything, I am even more motivated to do what I can do to find a healthy way of living and eating. Sort of like the serenity prayer. There's plenty that I cannot change and have to accept. But there are things that I do not have to accept and can change. And I think I have the wisdom to know the difference. Eating the last of what is left in the Twinkie warehouse will NOT make my arthritis go away. Eating healthy and anti-inflammatory foods might make it feel better. Sitting will NOT -- in the long run -- make the arthritis pain any less, but keeping in motion (in the right way) might help "oil the joints" and will make me feel better.
So anyway - my pain isn't any less because someone is suffering more. My pain is my pain and I will be damned if let it stop me from living the healthiest life I can.
Miriam
Sunday, December 9, 2012
writing it all down
If you checked the comments from my last post, my friend Flo sent a great article about journaling your food no matter what you are doing in the way of dieting (or non-dieting). It's a great read. But what really struck me and got me to thinking was Flo's comment itself: "I can just say that for myself, I can never "eat like a normal person",
because I am not that normal person. So if I need to track calories,
or points, or whatever, forever - it is really no big deal. That is
just "my normal".
OMG - thank you Flo! I really had to sit with that a week before I could even respond or blog again. Yes - we have learned to define normal as automatically knowing what to eat and in what quantities and frequency. But what if that is not MY normal? What if MY normal calls for a certain amount of vigilance? Maybe it's normal for ME to have an awareness and an accountability with my eating?
Taking everything into account, I am willing to journal my food. I am perfectly comfortable with Phase 2 of South Beach (very similar to Simply Filling/Core) and so for now, that is the route I am taking. My immediate goal is to stick with it more than three days! (lol) But really - no laughing matter. As I've blogged about before I have seriously bolting tendencies. I think what will help me through this is to eat my breakfast that I enjoy, and to use walnuts daily. I have to find something that I can live with, and if I take this seriously enough, this is something I can do. Mostly it just deletes most processed foods. There are enough that are allowed to make this an easy plan to follow. Also it takes the view: "Treat not cheat" - just don't go overboard. My personal goal is to keep that to a minimum - maybe once a week: I usually pack a small dessert to bring to my mother's when we do lunch weekly at her nursing home. Instead of avoiding it maybe I will use that as the week's treat. I really don't have desserts in the house otherwise. Another treat is that only breast meat is allowed - so for today, for instance, when I have a whole roast chicken for dinner I am having the dark meat (no skin). But we only do this 2-3 times a month so it really really is only a treat!
Early this morning I put a huge chicken in a turkey brine - I've never done that before with a chicken and if it is yummy enough I am going to also brine 4 pounds of boneless skinless chicken breasts that I will use throughout the week.
For breakfast I had my "usual" - 2 Wasa crackers, 2 lite Laughing Cow cheese wedges, topped with tomato slices, and 2 coffees (with cream). Ages ago when I was a member of the South Beach website I signed up for the extra feature of being able to work with a SB nutritionist, and her take on the cream was that if it was I something I really enjoyed, and it kept me on the straight and narrow the rest of the day, then not to be concerned if it wasn't on the approved list.
My morning snack was a small bowl of FF ricotta mixed with almond extract and Splenda.
For lunch I made my own deli-style chicken salad. I love my little "chopster" and have been using it more and more. I took a cooked chicken breast and put it in the chopster with a spoon of lite mayo and an apple. I had that with a salad tossed with olive oil and rice vinegar.
It's almost 3, and I'm feeling a bit hungry - I see a hard-boiled egg in my future, maybe with an apple.
For dinner I am having the roast chicken with sweet potato, string beans and another salad. I am also going to make my favorite WW cranberry relish (a bag of cranberries, a navel orange with the skin on, an inch of fresh ginger, and a cup of sweetener - the recipe calls for sugar, but I actually like it just as much with Splenda).
Babs - I'm not ready to add any form of exercise. I am seeing my orthopedist tomorrow - I have a newly discovered (but apparently not new) spine condition (causing awful hip and leg pain) that the chiropractor actually thinks only surgery will correct. But since I'm not going "there" I want to see what this doctor suggests. He's a DO and looks at surgery as an absolutel last resort, so I trust him to tell me what to do. I'm in such horrid pain within 1/10th of a mile of walking (and I can't even do my marathon cooking sessions anymore) - I know the recumbent bike probably is okay so I am just going to have to bite the bullet and probably take that as my exercise. But meanwhile I'm doing nada until I see this doctor. Anyway - I commend you for the pledge you took in your own blog!
Okay - off to put the chicken in the oven.
Miriam
OMG - thank you Flo! I really had to sit with that a week before I could even respond or blog again. Yes - we have learned to define normal as automatically knowing what to eat and in what quantities and frequency. But what if that is not MY normal? What if MY normal calls for a certain amount of vigilance? Maybe it's normal for ME to have an awareness and an accountability with my eating?
Taking everything into account, I am willing to journal my food. I am perfectly comfortable with Phase 2 of South Beach (very similar to Simply Filling/Core) and so for now, that is the route I am taking. My immediate goal is to stick with it more than three days! (lol) But really - no laughing matter. As I've blogged about before I have seriously bolting tendencies. I think what will help me through this is to eat my breakfast that I enjoy, and to use walnuts daily. I have to find something that I can live with, and if I take this seriously enough, this is something I can do. Mostly it just deletes most processed foods. There are enough that are allowed to make this an easy plan to follow. Also it takes the view: "Treat not cheat" - just don't go overboard. My personal goal is to keep that to a minimum - maybe once a week: I usually pack a small dessert to bring to my mother's when we do lunch weekly at her nursing home. Instead of avoiding it maybe I will use that as the week's treat. I really don't have desserts in the house otherwise. Another treat is that only breast meat is allowed - so for today, for instance, when I have a whole roast chicken for dinner I am having the dark meat (no skin). But we only do this 2-3 times a month so it really really is only a treat!
Early this morning I put a huge chicken in a turkey brine - I've never done that before with a chicken and if it is yummy enough I am going to also brine 4 pounds of boneless skinless chicken breasts that I will use throughout the week.
For breakfast I had my "usual" - 2 Wasa crackers, 2 lite Laughing Cow cheese wedges, topped with tomato slices, and 2 coffees (with cream). Ages ago when I was a member of the South Beach website I signed up for the extra feature of being able to work with a SB nutritionist, and her take on the cream was that if it was I something I really enjoyed, and it kept me on the straight and narrow the rest of the day, then not to be concerned if it wasn't on the approved list.
My morning snack was a small bowl of FF ricotta mixed with almond extract and Splenda.
For lunch I made my own deli-style chicken salad. I love my little "chopster" and have been using it more and more. I took a cooked chicken breast and put it in the chopster with a spoon of lite mayo and an apple. I had that with a salad tossed with olive oil and rice vinegar.
It's almost 3, and I'm feeling a bit hungry - I see a hard-boiled egg in my future, maybe with an apple.
For dinner I am having the roast chicken with sweet potato, string beans and another salad. I am also going to make my favorite WW cranberry relish (a bag of cranberries, a navel orange with the skin on, an inch of fresh ginger, and a cup of sweetener - the recipe calls for sugar, but I actually like it just as much with Splenda).
Babs - I'm not ready to add any form of exercise. I am seeing my orthopedist tomorrow - I have a newly discovered (but apparently not new) spine condition (causing awful hip and leg pain) that the chiropractor actually thinks only surgery will correct. But since I'm not going "there" I want to see what this doctor suggests. He's a DO and looks at surgery as an absolutel last resort, so I trust him to tell me what to do. I'm in such horrid pain within 1/10th of a mile of walking (and I can't even do my marathon cooking sessions anymore) - I know the recumbent bike probably is okay so I am just going to have to bite the bullet and probably take that as my exercise. But meanwhile I'm doing nada until I see this doctor. Anyway - I commend you for the pledge you took in your own blog!
Okay - off to put the chicken in the oven.
Miriam
Sunday, December 2, 2012
Going round and round
I had been feeling very blue as of late because I was thinking I am NEVER going to get this. For all the work I'm doing on Intuitive Eating I am not losing weight. Then I jump back to WWPP and gain weight. I really had to take a step back (I don't think I've blogged since my stuffed turkey episode before Thanksgiving! lol) and figure out what I want for myself. I want the "meld" that I've been talking about, but I am just not ready to do it without boundaries.
Counting Points is not the boundary I am looking for. IE has NO boundaries (well, yes it does but they are more ethereal-type boundaries - something I am not ready for yet), so what's a girl to do? How can I kick the whole trust and meld concepts into gear without continuing to gain weight? In my opinion, following the South Beach way of eating or the Simply Filling Technique gives the boundaries I am looking for without going all crazy with food-category eliminations while allowing me to live the 9 other principles of Intuitive Eating (although since SB and SF claim to be lifestyles and not diets I can almost squeak by saying I am complying with Principle #1: get rid of the diet mentality) ... I think I've come full circle, because at the very early stages of this blog I spent a lot of time talking about South Beach, Simply Filling, TRUST, etc. What I was missing was the IE part of the puzzle - which is stopping when full, eating when hungry, allowing eating for pleasure, etc.
I think another problem I was having was the fear of having to diet all my life. With IE this is supposed to be removed from the equation because if you learn to eat like a normal person, not a dieter, then this will not be a problem. With something along the lines of SB or SF then it is very much in keeping with being a normal eater. I think these are the boundaries I need (at least right now).
I think the meld I should be looking for is not between WW and IE, but rather a meld of all the good healthy ways of eating. OMG I know how to eat healthy - I do not need a program - any program. The only question is - am I ready? can I do it? I KNOW HOW TO DO IT!!!!!!! but WILL I?
So far so good today... but it's only noon! lol.... I don't know whether to journal my food or just take it meal-by-meal, making good choices all along. Back to baby steps...
Miriam
Counting Points is not the boundary I am looking for. IE has NO boundaries (well, yes it does but they are more ethereal-type boundaries - something I am not ready for yet), so what's a girl to do? How can I kick the whole trust and meld concepts into gear without continuing to gain weight? In my opinion, following the South Beach way of eating or the Simply Filling Technique gives the boundaries I am looking for without going all crazy with food-category eliminations while allowing me to live the 9 other principles of Intuitive Eating (although since SB and SF claim to be lifestyles and not diets I can almost squeak by saying I am complying with Principle #1: get rid of the diet mentality) ... I think I've come full circle, because at the very early stages of this blog I spent a lot of time talking about South Beach, Simply Filling, TRUST, etc. What I was missing was the IE part of the puzzle - which is stopping when full, eating when hungry, allowing eating for pleasure, etc.
I think another problem I was having was the fear of having to diet all my life. With IE this is supposed to be removed from the equation because if you learn to eat like a normal person, not a dieter, then this will not be a problem. With something along the lines of SB or SF then it is very much in keeping with being a normal eater. I think these are the boundaries I need (at least right now).
I think the meld I should be looking for is not between WW and IE, but rather a meld of all the good healthy ways of eating. OMG I know how to eat healthy - I do not need a program - any program. The only question is - am I ready? can I do it? I KNOW HOW TO DO IT!!!!!!! but WILL I?
So far so good today... but it's only noon! lol.... I don't know whether to journal my food or just take it meal-by-meal, making good choices all along. Back to baby steps...
Miriam
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