Feeling good (but slightly light blue) today... I haven't been in a store (except a few times to the grocery store) since my surgery. So today I asked my husband to take me to TJMaxx, as I needed to pick up a gift for my mother. On the way over I told him that if I couldn't find anything we could jump to the other TJMaxx location and also go into Marshalls. OMG - I couldn't have been walking around the store more than 10 minutes when I had to navigate to the back where they have furniture so I could sit down for a few minutes. After resting I made my way to the front of the store and told my husband we had to leave, and no I didn't want to go to Marshalls.
I was a bit upset as this is the first outing where I have felt this tired immediately. He reminded me that I am working a lot on my balance and walking "normally" and that takes a lot of work on my body, even though it's not the same as something more physical like riding the bike or doing my exercises. It made sense but I was no less deflated that I couldn't have the shopping excursion that I was looking forward to.
At PT today I was telling her that my sciatica is starting to rear its ugly head and we decided that I need to do some core exercises - maybe starting with some crunches at home, then on Friday she will work on others. I actually (used to) have superb core strength because of my dancing, but 10 weeks in a recliner (preceded by months of needing to cut down on my activity because of arthritis pain) has left me very weak in the middle. Doesn't help that I have blobs of stomach fat pulling my back forward! OMG - an hour of exercise isn't enough????? But I have to make this commitment if I am ever going to be "normal."
So, all in all, I'm a little blue right now. I have to read back to all the wonderful progress I've been making though. HOWEVER, I do have a "NSV" to report today: Not only did I get in the shower myself (which I actually accomplished a week or so ago) but I didn't announce it "just in case." The next NSV with regard to showering will be when I dare to do it when no one is home! So, a step forward... I guess.... maybe I'm not DARK blue! lol
Miriam
Hope your light blue period has passed. Your husband is right--not being able to walk without thinking requires a tremendous amount of strength and energy. You are like me; you are expecting more of yourself than is probably possible. At your stage, I wouldn't have even considered going to TJ Maxx, and I certainly wouldn't have gone to the back of the store to sit down--I would have been out the door! You are doing great!
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